Lost

I lost Lincoln today.  I felt so bad.  We were at our little neighbor Lauren's school program.  She is in kindergarten and Lincoln and Lauren love to play together.  Lauren is such a cute girl.  We were outside playing on the playground and I told Lincoln we had to go.  We were going to go to Lauren's class, then go home with them.  They had a table of cookies so I told him he could get one more cookie before we left.  As he was getting a cookie I saw a friend from church on the other side of the table.  So I passed Lincoln and went to talk to her.  I guess Lincoln didn't see me and thought I had gone inside, so he ran to the school and went inside after me.  Well, I talked to my friend for a minute and then Kathy, Lauren's mom, came over and asked me where Lincoln was.  I didn't see him anywhere.  I looked on the playground and everywhere.  Then I headed for the doors to see if he had gone inside.  He was on the other side of the door crying.  I felt sooooo bad.  I wasn't nervous yet, because it had only been a couple of minutes, but when I saw Lincoln's face I felt like such a bad mom.  I lost him because I was talking to someone else.  This was the first time Lincoln knew he was lost.  You usually can't find your kids at the park for a while, they never know they are lost because they are just playing, but this was the first time Lincoln was looking for me in a crowded place he had never been before and he couldn't find me.  Ohhh my heart was breaking while he was crying on my shoulder, I felt like I let him down.  I'm just glad he didn't go further in the school looking for me, I'm glad it was only a few minutes.  He's fine of course and I'm sure hasn't thought much of it now, but I just love him soooo much and it made me so sad to make him so scared like that just because I wasn't paying attention and I was talking to a friend.  I am blessed to have such adorable boys and I never want them to be scared because they can't find me.  What am I going to do when I go to Latvia and we have three little guys running around.  I guess I am going to have to get some leashes so I don't loose them.